JM’s Journal: God Still Loves Me Even When I Act Like a Mad Woman


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God Still Loves Me Even When I Act Like a Mad Woman

He Loves You Too – Every Day – and Will Never Stop Loving You

by J.M. Troppello


Recently, I had a bad day. It seemed like everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. I used some ‘choice words’ that day. I got angry. Thankfully, I wasn’t reacting to anyone since I was home alone at the time. I was simply extremely busy with work, had to do a project at home—that was not going well at all—I hadn’t eaten lunch yet (big mistake), and I just lost it.


My husband happened to call at that moment. I probably shouldn’t have answered the phone. However, he was calm and let me vent my frustration.


3 You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You. 4 Trust in the Lord forever, For in Yah, the Lord, is everlasting strength.
(Isaiah 26:3-4, NKJV)

There were several reasons that I got upset (as mentioned in the first paragraph). However, one important thing I had not done was to keep my mind on God during that situation. I allowed myself to get completely frustrated. It wasn’t until I took a step back, calmed myself down—and started looking for simple solutions to the issue—that I was able to rectify the problem.


I’m sure you’ve likely had bad days like that. Days where you’d rather just go back to bed and not face the madness anymore. However, completely avoiding issues and reacting poorly to them will not make the situation any better.


Looking back at that day from earlier this week, I can breathe a sigh of relief, knowing that everything got resolved and things weren’t as bad as I thought they were—in the moment.


That’s the key – so many times, things are not as bad as you might think. Sure, there are situations that are extremely dire and as bad as you think. However, many times, you and I react poorly to people and situations because we’re tired, hungry, frustrated with something else, worried about a situation, or busy with life.


God still loves you during those moments. He still loves me.

Even in the frustration of that moment, my spirit was trying to get in touch with my flesh and tell me to look up. It was trying to get me to see that I needed to calm down and refocus on God.


I will lift up my eyes to the hills— From whence comes my help? 2 My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.
(Psalm 121:1-2, NKJV)

When I finally calmed down enough, I was able to see that God was trying to give me a simple solution to the problem. He had been with me the entire time. However, I tried to ‘figure it out’ all on my own. Which led to disaster and frustration.


I’m not proud of myself for reacting like a mad woman in that situation. That had been my M.O. (modus operandi) for many years during my pre-emotional maturity level in my twenties. I am proud of the fact that I’ve grown so much through the years and have matured emotionally and spiritually.


Yet, I still fall back into old negative and unproductive habits at times. I’m sure you do too. But God still loves you. He still loves me. I’m repeating that sentiment because it’s so true. I know I need to be reminded of that. Maybe you do too.


Even when you mess up, God will be there for you. He’s not expecting perfection, because no person is perfect. You and I are works in progress—hopefully, growing daily in our emotional and spiritual walks with the Lord.



Article syndicated by Mustard Seed Sentinel on Medium.com.

 

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J.M. Troppello is an author, writer, and poet. She is the publisher of the online Christian lifestyle magazine, Mustard Seed Sentinel.


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