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Have You Ever Felt Like Throwing a Pity Party?

Hanging in There While Your Miracle is Still on the Way

by J.M. Troppello

Have you ever felt like having a pity party? You know, those days when nothing is going right and it’s taking FOREVER for God to answer your prayer. Of course, you understand in your heart that He has a plan.

Yet, it still hurts during the waiting times. You wonder if you’ve misunderstood the Word that you’d thought you’d heard from God—that His miracle was coming. Maybe you feel like letting go of the hope that He still has things in control.

Hanging on to Your Faith

I’ve read the “faith” chapter from Hebrews many times. It starts with a powerful verse.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” – Hebrews 11:1 (NKJV)

I’ve memorized this verse and recited it to myself many times when I needed a boost in faith. However, when you’ve been waiting a long time for a miracle, it can get tiring trying to hang on to your faith.

Another powerful verse from this faith chapter is verse six.

“But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” – Hebrews 11:6 (NKJV)

I admit that there have been times during my pity parties that I’ve thought this verse was unfair. How could a loving God not be pleased with someone who doesn’t have faith?

Asking that question, reminded me of the time when the disciples asked Jesus to increase their faith in Luke 17:5.

“And the apostles said to the Lord, ‘Increase our faith.’” – Luke 17:5 (NKJV)

In response to their request, Jesus replied to them that even a small amount of faith (like the size of a mustard seed) matters to God.

So the Lord said, “If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you. – Luke 7:6 (NKJV)

Moving back to the faith chapter, Hebrews 11, I’m reminded that everyone had faith. Yet some people received answers to their prayers, and some did not. Enoch believed and he did not die but was transported to Heaven (verse 5). His testimony of faith had pleased God.

Noah was a man of faith and obedience to God. He was warned of the flood to come. He built the ark even though the people ridiculed him. However, he and his family and the animals were saved. He “became heir of the righteousness which is according to faith” (verse 7).

In verses 35b – 37, you can see that some were tortured, mocked, scourged, imprisoned, stoned, and slain. It says in verse 35 that, “…not accepting deliverance, that they might obtain a better resurrection.”

These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. – Hebrews 11:13 (NKJV)

Verse 13 of this faith chapter sums things up perfectly. Some of those in this great Hall of Faith never received deliverance here on earth. Yet, they were okay with that since they were pilgrims on the earth. Their real home was in Heaven.

As a Christian of 33 years, my faith has been on a circuitous journey. I’ve concluded that I agree wholeheartedly with the message of verse 13. I was only able to come to that knowledge by receiving various answers to prayers through the years—yes, no, and wait.

Knowing that the message of verse 13 is a pivotal part of the faith journey for a Christian, doesn’t make it any easier when you have to hang on as you’re waiting for your miracle to come.

Understanding that message doesn’t make it easy to accept that the answer to your prayer is no because God has a better plan—even though you have difficulty accepting it.

Yet, I have realized that even if God would not answer any other prayers in my life, that’s okay. I will never stop believing in Him and knowing that my real home is in Heaven. After all, I know He’s not a Genie in a Bottle, only here to grant me my wishes.


About the Author

JM Troppello at Mustard Seed Sentinel

J.M. Troppello is an author, writer, and poet. She is the publisher of the online Christian lifestyle magazine, Mustard Seed Sentinel.

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