Jo’s Journal: You Can’t Run from Your Past

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You Can’t Run from Your Past

Yet You Can Learn from it and Move On

by Joanne Troppello

“When the moment comes to stop running from your past, to turn around and face the thing you thought you could not face—the moment when your life teeters between giving up and getting up—when that moment comes, and it always comes, if you can't get up and you can't give up either, here's what you do: Crawl.” – Rick Yancy, The 5th Wave

I wrote the title down for this article about six months ago. I liked the title and subtitle, but I hadn’t had any inclination to write an article about this topic until today.

I have a past. You have a past. It’s something that you or I can’t run from. Sure, you can run from your past for a while. Yet, as Rick Yancy wrote, the moment comes, and it always comes. When the past catches up with you, it’s important for you to face it or you won’t be able to learn from it and move on.

Learning from Your Past

“You can wreck your future running from your past.” – T.D. Jakes

That is a simple, yet profound statement from T.D. Jakes. For a long time, I tried to run from my past, in so many areas that I’ve messed up. Yet, God was always watching over me, even when I made bad mistakes like going out with the wrong guy and living through an emotionally and physically abusive relationship. God watched over me when my husband (not the bad relationship) and I made some bad decisions after we both lost our jobs within 6 months of each other in 2009 and 2010.

Running from the past – and continually making bad decisions (in a snowball effect) during a ten-year period – started to wreck our future. Yet, throughout that time period, God got a hold of our hearts and spiritual renewal began. We’d both been Christians for a long time prior to losing our jobs. However, experiencing deep financial strain caused us to argue a lot, make decisions in our flesh and not the spirit, and live in depression and continual stress.

“There is a light at the end of every tunnel. Some tunnels just happen to be longer than others.” – Ada Adams.

That’s how I feel, like we’ve been going through a long, dark tunnel for many years (through mostly our own fault) – yet there is a light at the end of the tunnel that is getting brighter each day.

The beauty of this darkness is that God was with us through it all. He had His perfect will for our lives, but He knew we were going to make our own decisions and follow our will for our lives.

"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, Because the Lord has anointed Me To preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives, And the opening of the prison to those who are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn, To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness…" - Isaiah 61:1-3 (NKJV)

This passage from Isaiah 61:1-3 pertains to the good news of salvation (as mentioned in the heading for this chapter). Yet, the last part in verse 3 – to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning – has truly resonated with me throughout this time in the dark tunnel while running from our past and then facing it.

God is good. He is redeeming our time and our circumstances. In one year, we will have reached our 7th year after having had a short sale and will be able to get a conventional home loan again. In 6 months, we will have paid off a major credit card debt. In 9 months, we will have paid off our car payment. With both of those paid off, that will mean more money in our savings. Since making regular payments for the last several years, our credit score has increased. After these debts are paid, the credit score will increase even more.

I’ve also been getting training online in cryptocurrencies and stock options. We have some investments, but I want to learn as much as I can about improving my investment skills and seeing the right opportunities as they come along.

God can redeem your past as well. God bless!


About the Author

Joanne Troppello at Mustard Seed Sentinel

Joanne Troppello is an author, writer, and poet. She is the publisher of the online Christian lifestyle magazine, Mustard Seed Sentinel. Connect with Joanne on Twitter. You can find Joanne on these social media channels—Twitter, Facebook, Parler, Spreely, and Clouthub—with the same username, @JoanneTroppello—and @joannetroppello.mseedsentinel on Instagram. Visit the Mustard Seed Sentinel YouTube Channel. Check out MSS Live Well Corner.