Wait on the Lord
by Celita Perillo
May I be honest? I’m so tired.
The recent challenges my family is facing are progressively compounded by the tragedies and grief of those who are our relatives, neighbors and friends, in nearby towns, and even across the world.
May has been a crazy, emotional month with too many deaths—of young and old—and an onslaught of spiritual arrows and darts that have us in a tizzy some days, and a bit dazed other days.
I have been on prayer mode daily, out of necessity, and while I feel so weary, I’m also feeling that the overstretching circumstances are training my inner being to be more steadfast, to endure and to hold on to Jesus no matter what.
And it makes me wonder…
Lord, what are you up to? What is coming that you are preparing my aching heart for?
I will not presume to say or think that I know everything, but one thing I have learned in my life is that God does not waste anything that is surrendered to Him.
I say it frequently, because it encourages me. The Lord makes “beauty for ashes”! He can take the ashes of our lives: the tragedies; the warped, broken, twisted, consumed parts of us… our relationships… our marriages… our dreams—and He can make something BEAUTIFUL from them.
That knowledge fills me again and again and again with hope, because I wait with anticipation of what He WILL do. I HAVE to believe that He will keep His word, not because I am some naive, over-trusting, foolish woman. No. But because “I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him until that day.” (2 Timothy 1: 12)
I have seen Him growing in, ministering to, keeping, and helping me and my family, and I love Him so much for never giving up on me, on us.
Jesus is there. We must believe it, even when our own brains try to deceive us from believing it, even in the midst of our emotional tantrums, or as the storms threaten to suck us in and spit us out. Cling to that knowledge as a lifeline. Because Jesus is mighty to save.
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord.” (Psalm 27: 13, 14)
Lord, you see where we are. You see how we are. We need You. Help us to cling to You even when we do not see the results of things, the healing of things, the help in things. Help us to keep our gaze on you, unwaveringly trusting You. And, strengthen and comfort our weary, aching hearts. Encourage us with Your care and fruit and Presence. Keep us from temptation, and remind us of the things we so easily forget. We love You, Jesus. Amen.
About the Author
Celita Perillo is a 40-something wife and mother of five living in Southern Italy.
Her goals are to never stop learning, draw ever nearer to Jesus, and be intentional in counting blessings; encouraging, edifying, and sharing
God’s love to others. A smile and kind word go a long way. While she has many verses that mean a lot to her, she considers Colossians 3: 17, 23 her life verses.